Strange week. Sunday was kind of a down day to me because of personal family issues. I'm working through them slowly, as I would with anything else in life. Life can really be a pain at times. The happy times that one gets out of life are sometimes far and few between for some folks. Some have to work at finding happiness and others seem to find it all the time. I think I'm in the category of being happy about 70% of the time. The rest of the time, I'm trying to make things work for everyone else. I know, it's a futile battle. From what I've seen though, 70% is nothing to feel bad about. Some people never find happiness.

I've always had a problem of being left out or excluded from things. Maybe I feel inadequate in some way and I end up feeling that way myself. I do know that when something happens that makes me feel that way, I do have a choice on how I will deal with it. I can either choose to let it get to me and wallow in self-pity, or I can do something to change it. That may mean making my feelings known, or planning a small vacation for a bit to get away. Either way, I don't bring it back onto myself and get depressed. Depression = wasted energy. It is a total waist of time. There are times when we are depressed, but if you can channel that energy into something else away from the problems that are causing it, you will be better off in the long run. The only thing in life that you really have is NOW and the only one you can completely have control of is YOU.