Life as bread

Today was a tough day. You ever have those days where you wonder where you are going? It's like you can't put two thoughts together. Actually, I couldn't put two thoughts together. I got half way to work and realized that I forgot my cell phone. Then I said to myself, "heck, I don't care". My whole day was like that. It seemed like I was in a dream, in a way.

Everything is so serious in life it seems now. I was thinking about when I was a child, how simple life was then. Now, everyone is in a class it seems. I suppose many years from now we can look back on everythings that's happening to our community and say, "we were a part of that... we were a part of history". And I suppose in a way that will seem very cool. But in the here and now, it's not pleasant.

I tell myself that everyone has problems and challenges, and that's true. We all do, no matter what "class" society sees fit to put us in. But life can be more difficult if you are on an uneven playing field. And that's how I feel.

Everytime Kent goes on a trip, I worry. We are taking a long trip to Idaho in August, and I'm worried about that. What if something happens to one of us? What if something were to happen to Kent on one of his trips? What will happen to the world that we have created together? Will the survivor have anything left, other than memories? Why should I have to worry about any of this?

I know many married straight couples who have children, as most of you do. It is a great challenge to raise a family. But, I also know that, come what may, those families have a lot of support that comes from marriage. I know a lot of couples, such as Kent and me, who are unable to get married. Some day, I hope that society will be able to see the love that these couples have and that, in the eyes of that love, we are all truly equal.

These are the thoughts that I've had today in light of what has happened in Massachusetts. I'm saddened when I hear the legislators who chose to ban gay marriage and allow civil unions, sit there and say, "we were being very careful not to discriminate against gay couples", knowing full well that there is no support at the federal level for civil unions. I guess that's not their problem. I'm reminded of a scene in the movie Pretty Woman, when Richard Gere turned to Julia Roberts, who plays a prostitute, and says to her, "I've never treated you like a prostitute." He then leaves. She looks forward and says, "You just did."

I've made some home made bread. You ever notice how good it smells when it's almost ready? That's how simple life should be.

Good night.